CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: ice - lights.
inky confession ----> sometimes, changes make me sad.

lights is so amazing. her song i'm listening to relates so much. it reminds me of a friend. this friend was once someone i truly cared about, to a full extent. i kept their best interests at heart, i tried to keep up with them. despite all this, they turned to 'ice' and pushed me away. i don't think we'll ever regain our friendship.

i've tried to ignore this for the longest time, but as i was myspacing around, i couldn't help but notice that people CHANGE. majorly. and what's sad is, some people i know have changed so much from the person they used to be, to the point where it affects our friendship. i have had many 'best friends' that i thought i would be close to for forever. it never happened. growing apart sucks. but i think the major reason is because of change. sometimes people change too fast for us to accept it. instead of going along with the new them, they leave us behind and move on.

even i have to admit, i've changed alot. just in the way i speak or think, there's a pretty drastic difference. here's an old myspace myssage i found;

From: ||♥|| SHAINA
Date: Dec 21 2006 3:36 PM


haha
HI!! :)
my parents think im crazy cause i dont like to sleep until in the morning... O:-)
wuts up??

photoshop done downloading?! >:D

alright, that was me talking in 'o6.
&as far as i remember, i have never wrote 'what' as 'wut'. but reading back on all those messages, apparently i did. i also wrote 'you' as 'u', which i still can't believe i did. really, i do not recall any of these changes, but i must've just decided one day to never write 'wut' or 'u' again.

have i changed? i've always wondered if i have. it's just harder to notice changes on yourself than a friend noticing. hopefully my changes haven't affected those around me that i care about. if i ever do change, &i'm somewhat leaving you behind, knock me out ot it. give me a wakeup call, & tell me to snap out of it. i'm pretty sure i won't forget the person i really am.

-s.