CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: here we go again - demi lovato
inky confession ----> you aren't forgotten.

i had to think really hard, rewind backwards and forwards throughout my life, to find the perfect person to write this too. don't bother guessing, because you won't get close. don't bother asking, because you won't know who it is. all you can really do, is read this, and think of someone who this reminds you of. everyone has, had, or will have, someone like this in their life. you should always be grateful for each day that this person is in your life, because people come and go. no matter what, life moves on, time moves on.

dear you,
i had to think so hard, and out of all the people in my life, i chose you. out of all my best friends, and amazing people in the world, i chose you. you were in my life, for only the briefest moment. yet, why do i still remember it? you're someone who's made a huge impact on me.

now that i come to think of it, i'm unsure of how you felt about everything then - whether or not you had good intentions or bad - but i know one thing. your heart, towards me, was completely pure. you loved me.

i was crying, and you were there. not only did you hold me & cheer me up, you gave me the courage to talk so much! it was from you, that i learned how to accept life's lessons. it was from you, that after every wrong mistake, i would repeat what i did wrong, and what i would do to fix it. i learned logic. you are special to me - because i will never forget your comfort. i was scared, but in the end, i had nothing but a smile on my face. talking so much, and giggling.

i remember we talked about a story about some cat.. but here's where my memory ends. i never fully gave you my word about my true appreciation towards you. thanks, for being there, for making me happy, and for making me a stronger person. that day, i conquered one of life's first challenges.

i love you. thank you.

-s.

p.s - don't bother assuming it's parents, it's not.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: i caught myself - paramore
inky confession ----> there is no silver lining without a cloud.

i know i haven't written anything for the longest time. but, what is there to really complain about. or rather, what is worth writing about these days, during the hours of ticking freedom. so much i could possibly do instead, and i chose to do it.

that, is the reason why i haven't been writing. or ''dead'', as people call it. i'm back though.

i'm here to talk about good things. and how they almost, always go wrong somehow. ''with every cloud comes a silver lining.'' but can there ever just be a silver lining? i can only hope, and experience it one day. sometimes, the 'cloud' would be one's mind. you can trick yourself out of things, and change your mind because of it. what happens when your mind isn't the one speaking, but a person? you could just stay strong to your own idea, but then keep wondering how that other person would feel.

one reason i love the summer is because i have the most time and space to think. i could sit and write for hours, or lie in bed and shuffle with pointless thoughts. it's the most 'me' time i have throughout the whole year. i've also realized that if i still had school during this time of year, i probably wouldn't bother thinking about half the things i think about. it wouldn't be important enough to me. but now, things are so mellow that it's an automatic to draw up something and see it as an issue. anything to keep your mind running.

also, my birthday's coming up on the 7th. i'm excited, but the thought of planning anything makes me distressed. that just shows what my level of laziness has come to.

i'll keep writing. i promise.

-s.