CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: so sick - ne-yo
inky confession ----> i'm just a painter, and i'm drawing a blank.

my mind, fried. my back, aching. my heart, broken. my fingers, stained. my eyes, hallow.

i don't feel well.

four words are nowhere equal to this.. pain. this depression.
but why waste my breath.

what is the cause of this?
surely it can't be art. i love art. . .

it's been days, and i still feel like an inanimate pile of crap.
why?

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: new classic - drew seeley
inky confession ----> yes, it is possible to be this happy.

I'm thankful for all the people in my life, all the friends, the family, the family friends, the most amazing neighbors in the world, their son, the neighbors' friends. . and the list goes on. I'm thankful for everyone in my life, good or bad - because in a way, they've all impacted me and made me into who I am today.

Today has been my favorite Thanksgiving I've ever had in my life. I'm not sure how to explain it ( there's so much I could talk about !), or how happy I am. So instead, I'll show you;


Yes. I was happy. And I still am.

I'm thankful for having such an unforgettable time today, with probably some of the most amazing people in my life. Tom&Yong, thank you for being the greatest neighbors in the WORLD. You guys are like family, seriously. You've been there all throughout my life, and whatever my family's gone through, you've been there to help. I don't know what I would do without you guys. Certainly, their can't be any better neighbors. You guys are as good as it gets. You wonderful, lovely, lovely, people!

Yong, I don't know what my mom would do without you. You're just about the most interesting adult I've ever met. You're tough, hilarious, a sport-fanatic, and.. you're your own person. You're one of the strongest women I have met in my life. I admire you so much for it. And your cooking is delicious. Thank you for being an amazing support system for my mom. She really couldn't have survived without you. You were their for her during all of my family's tough times, like when my Dad was in the hospital. When my mom was on the verge of a breakdown, it was you that called the ambulance to help my dad. So in that sense, my dad, literally, couldn't have survived without you. Thank-you. For everything. My family will always be here to help you.

Tom, the warm, loving, compassionate man that's just so nice to be around. What would life be like not knowing you? You're simply a good man. Your guitar playing skills are lovely, and I enjoy your mellow since of humor, even though I may not understand it at times. Simply, your laugh makes everyone around you want to laugh. Your aura can brighten the saddest person.

Tim, I'm glad you could make it to today's dinner. I've finally gotten to know you better today, and I won't forget it. We had an amazing time, and dinner, along with after-dinner was just so hilarious. You're very smart, handsome, and successful. I know good things are in your way, and thank-you for being so supportive of my 'art and dance' lifestyle. You may not be interested in my life, but you certainly seem like it. Anyway, thanks for being a great person to get to meet.

Scott, you and your girlfriend are the most adorable couple. Truly, you guys are such warm, lovely people - with a great sense of humor! Thank you being a big part of why I loved today. Scott, you're way cool, and your girlfriend IS beautiful, even if she denies it. I loved the laughs we shared after dinner, about chinese names, animal parts as food, and so much more.. !

THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING MY THANKSGIVING 'o9 THE GREATEST. <3
I couldn't have asked for better. I'm still smiling. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: vanilla twilight - owl city
inky confession ----> two wrongs make a right.

We may be drenched in flaws, but we're perfect together.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: zero gravity - david archuleta
inky confession ----> ''nothing brings me down, when you're around.''

Some people find it surprising when they realize that I don't actually have a heart of stone. I can understand where they're coming from, though. I don't adapt to people so easily, much less give them my affection.

However, I'm just like any other foolish girl. Honestly, I do fall head-over-heels, I do crave attention, and I do wish to be loved. Love is an amazing treasure, and I'm sure every person has a spot in their heart for it. I think people automatically assume one's ability to love or be loved, based on the walls they've built around themselves. I for one, admit to having a tough wall to break through. It's just a natural thing to do; getting hurt once is enough for anyone to want to never get hurt again.

Well, I've found my someone special. It wasn't an easy journey, taking the course of a year for everything to be where it is now. My life began to shift months ago. This change has made me the happiest I've ever been in a long time; there are no regrets. Not only am I more up to par with the rest of the world, I've become a better person. I'm learning to be more responsible, and I've learned to procrastinate less, all thanks to that person. I'm glad I chose him. He has, more or less, brought out the best in me.

-s.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: never change - j. han
inky confession ----> 520, 54.