CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: exploration of space - cosmic gate
inky confession ----> friendships are harder to keep than relationships.

in friendships, you are not obligated to spend time with that person. you choose to. in relationships, you know something is there to maintain, to take care of and not let go of. that being said, it's easy to forget that friendships are just as fragile as any relationship, if not harder. friendships have to be worked on. if that person is someone you truly care about, then you better put in effort. distance, unlike a breakup, is not something that you can end on good terms. with every step back, the gap grows. feelings of emptiness will attach to the memories.

we all hate it. or at least i do. the worst part of the whole situation is when reality hits, you realize that not only have you grown apart, you have already lost that person. it's that whole feeling of realization. looking at something that once was can really put things into perspective. sometimes i would ask myself, how did this happen? the last time i spoke to that person, what made that my last? i wish i knew the answer. is it my fault or theirs. or is it time's fault. i'm just angry at myself for letting it all happen. i feel like such a naive, ignorant girl who expects the world's happenings to go her way. a girl who thinks that some things are unfair in life. a girl who thought she could actually do something about it. but she is wrong. when you realize you have distanced from the person you've always told yourself you never would, you know that it's time for a reality check. while you may be comfortable with the current situation, life is never at a standstill. it won't wait. telling someone that you'll never distance from them isn't worth it. especially if you know things like that are unexpected and unavoidable. i miss missing you.

-s.