CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: i caught myself - paramore
inky confession ----> there is no silver lining without a cloud.

i know i haven't written anything for the longest time. but, what is there to really complain about. or rather, what is worth writing about these days, during the hours of ticking freedom. so much i could possibly do instead, and i chose to do it.

that, is the reason why i haven't been writing. or ''dead'', as people call it. i'm back though.

i'm here to talk about good things. and how they almost, always go wrong somehow. ''with every cloud comes a silver lining.'' but can there ever just be a silver lining? i can only hope, and experience it one day. sometimes, the 'cloud' would be one's mind. you can trick yourself out of things, and change your mind because of it. what happens when your mind isn't the one speaking, but a person? you could just stay strong to your own idea, but then keep wondering how that other person would feel.

one reason i love the summer is because i have the most time and space to think. i could sit and write for hours, or lie in bed and shuffle with pointless thoughts. it's the most 'me' time i have throughout the whole year. i've also realized that if i still had school during this time of year, i probably wouldn't bother thinking about half the things i think about. it wouldn't be important enough to me. but now, things are so mellow that it's an automatic to draw up something and see it as an issue. anything to keep your mind running.

also, my birthday's coming up on the 7th. i'm excited, but the thought of planning anything makes me distressed. that just shows what my level of laziness has come to.

i'll keep writing. i promise.

-s.