CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: kiss from a rose - seal
inky confession ----> my gramps, the one man that i'm not afraid to love.
HAPPY 85th BIRTHDAY.

Today's your special day, and I'm sad that you have to go through it without family by your side. Just know that we all wish you a happy birthday and my heart goes out to you, across the ocean, the world, right to your doorstep. I love you with every fiber of my being, as much as I possibly could love. You're the greatest man in my eyes. I respect you more than anyone else. You've come along way, and you've been through all that life has to offer. All I can do is to never let you down, make you proud, and let your blood flow through my veins with pride. Be the best granddaughter I can be. Growing up with you in my life is something to be cherished and always remembered, especially on this day. You're getting stronger, and wiser, and sillier. You intelligent man, you make me smile and I'm so happy that you're MY Gramps. Sometimes you've made me upset, and you & I have had those pesky disagreements, especially since I was young and naive. But the things you do always make me crack a smile. You're so cute. I love you Gramps. Happy Birthday, this upcoming year will be great - filled with wondrous new things. Never give up, hold strong - and I'll be strong with you every step of the way. No matter where, our bond can't be broken. I love you.!

-s.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: away - allan cutler
inky confession ----> i can't lose this. i want this.
disappointed in myself. i slipped in the beginning, but pulled back together in the end. it wasn't enough. i was naive, ignorant, and unaware of the inevitable consequences to come of each error. this is more than a mistake; this is a big miscalculation. a lack of effort on my part, no consideration on theirs.

i want this so bad. but i didn't hold on, my grip was too weak.
i'll change. i'll do better, get stronger. i won't let myself down anymore.
i figured, one is only as strong as their willpower. my failure has opened my eyes. i'm more determined than i've ever been, my mind capacity and mental strength are now top knotch.
they say, ''nothing's impossible.''
yea?

i'll do my part, give it my all.
we'll just see about fate.

-s.