CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: apologize - one-republic
inky confession ----> 2010. . . HERE WE GO.

Closure was what I needed many times this year, but never received. Never moved on from those things I wanted to let go of so badly, and what better time to do so than now? End of one year, beginning of another. Time to put those memories to rest. Leave it all behind, carry nothing but myself into this exquisite timeframe of 2o1o.

So now it's an official goodbye to 'o9. Letting go of old grudges, I've had my fair share of time of being stubborn. Maybe now's the time to reminisce. . make my final judgement about 'o9. But I won't. Why waste my time thinking about the past, when the future's something I'm so excited to look forward to? I've stressed all I needed to over this past year, spilled my thoughts plenty, cried a good amount. That can all rest in peace, because I'm done. Done with all of that.

"It's often said that no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out, they were looking at the same big picture all along." -GG.

I've grown as a person. It doesn't take a birthday party or the official growing of age.. But a whole year of life experiences, definitely. I'm still on the path of figuring out who I am, but I've learned plenty. I've changed. I'm still changing. And I wish to continue changing, until that certain day, I find that I've finally found myself. Isn't that what we as human beings, were meant to do? Find our place in this world, and seek bliss in our lives. Others may not see what I see in the coming of a new year, maybe they're content with how things are already. I, however, am not just yet..

I think I've felt a never ending circle of emotions this year. Felt love for the slightest second, learned pain's pain, and perhaps - who my real friends are. Along with this, plenty of mistakes have been made on my part. I still am deeply sorry to those I've hurt and truth is, I never did get over it. I'm trying to now. I hope that is understandable, because we all need to get on with our lives. Flaws are what builds up our humanity.

I have my resolutions carefully planned and thought out. God knows that I'll never complete them, but tradition is tradition.

Cheers to everyone, and to the year of 2009. Here's to 2010, and what's to come.
Happy New Years !

-s.